its been awhile since my last journal so much crazyness. For starters in Nov my cancer came back so docs sent me to IN for treatment the lasted jan through feb i had surgery in march and have been slowly recovering from everything. During this time i had some changes happen to me.
i believe in the aspect of chaos
and the last girl i went out with i realize how much i missed her support let wakeing up at 4 am looking over and seeing her there in the chair asleep but just to know there was always her watching when she could and also her random thing how it made me feel inside.but now she gone away im still broken inside.
you dont need friends or people but if you have them never let them go cause it hurt more to have had and lost then never had

and i really really starting to hate god i will turn face if kevin dies i will start preaching against Christianity and other religion that is monotheist

cause what is life if you can not live it to the fullest when its cut short. if god put on this planet to live our lives we should be allowed to live them how we want at least in time aspect not to die by a thing that we can not prevent like cancer. cause you are cold if one of your childern has been given life and you snatch it away like a murder there is no forgiveness on something like that.